We live in a brief earthly existence. An existence that requires Jesus. When contemplating on the word “brief,” that word alone can be depressing. I am speaking for myself because I have had moments when in deep thought how brief life can be. I know it surely makes me think the briefness of life and how scary it can become when I am no longer walking on this earth. But the reality is that there is eternal life with HIM. At some point in our lives, we must surrender and accept Jesus as our Savior. Having to do life without Jesus is impossible for me now. My life without Him is completely meaningless and senseless. Life with Him is true living.
We live in a world of sin, messiness, brokenness, sickness, but know this- we are not alone because Jesus is walking right beside us through it all… the good and the not so good. HE is holding our hand made of flesh and bone and that itself is a comforting thought to know. To be held by hands where nails were once driven through, and bleed for our sake. A selfless act of love… who would refuse the privilege of holding His hand. We are not facing life alone because He promised that He would never leave us nor forsake us. His promised word is engraved and set on our hearts. And, He lights the fire for us when we finally give our lives to Him. Jesus just waits patiently. Having patience is not easy for the mere human. Imagine Jesus having patience beyond our comprehension… that’s pretty amazing.
It has now been five years when I gave my life to Jesus. Sometimes I wish I knew Him in those past years in the way I know Him now. Even though there is so much more to know of His character, He continues to love me just the same. It’s definitely an ongoing process knowing more of Him.
In all those years prior in which I lived floating through the motions of living a life without Him, I knew nothing. But with Him, I know something and that is, to have a utmost desire to spend eternity with Him.
In all my academic years, I attended private schools where I was exposed in learning about God. Little did I know that it takes a relationship with Him to really know Him at a deeper level and the most intimate one at that. Well, it had to take a trial- out of all the trials that I faced in my life, this one that I was facing at the time was about to break me to pieces and burn. To break me in ways that I never imagined it would break me. I was utterly broken and in the deepest despair. It broke me into small fragments where I found myself so very desperate… up to a point that I wanted to literally stop breathing in life. I cried with so much emotion. And yet, the only solution I came to was to stop living. The enemy had a pretty good grip of my life. He laughed at me and made me believe I was worthless and that no-one and God could ever love me the way I needed to be loved.
Where everyone I imagined would finally convince me to move on with life, did not work. Where counseling failed because I still chose to do things my way. I finally came to the conclusion, it being my last resort … to surrender to Jesus and accept Him as my Savior.
Even though I would have conversations with Him, go to church and spend time in solitude and other things that I thought were solutions, I finally fell on my knees and cried out so hard that I was short of breath and asked Him with my final cry to help me. The cries for help that meant for me to live or die.
Unfortunately, it had to take a trial in my life to realize that I needed saving by the only One who can save. I realized that I needed Him at the age of 41. I wanted to knock myself out for wasting most of my life not knowing Him sooner. Thinking of the age I was at… I felt regret that I didn’t have a relationship with Him sooner. But in His goodness, it doesn’t matter to Him where we are in life, or the age we are at. He doesn’t discriminate. What matters most is that we come to realize that we need saving by the one and only true God- King Jesus. If only we allow Him to invade our hearts with His love, and willing to give our lives to Him…then things will change for us. We will began walking in a different light- His loving light.
Our lives will not be perfect because we will still have the not so good days or encounter displeasing situations. Know this…we are not facing it alone. He is right there with us whether we feel His presence or not. We have a perfect God who understands us, knows us and loves us so very much. We are His imperfect children, yet He loves us all the same. When we allow His love to pour into our fragile hearts then our hearts will overflow with His unconditional love. His love is the greatest of all. Take His heart and let Him take yours.
Remember, this journey that we walk is one that is traveled with Jesus by our side. Thank Jesus because He has you in His embrace.