The Waters

Jesus walks with us through the storms of life. Sometimes we feel His presence and then sometimes when we may not. But it doesn’t mean He is not with us; and it doesn’t mean we are alone through the storm. We may be at our weakest, but He is our strengthener. What a comforting thought that we don’t have to go through this life alone because He is with us every step and every moment in our lives. We serve an amazing God who loves us so much even when we fail Him.

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The beauty within…

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Who knows us better than we know ourselves, or in that matter, than anyone else who resides on this earth- but God Himself. He is the One who shaped and built us with His hands and who has our name engraved on His palms. The One who created us by every cell, every fiber and every particle.  This exquisite being of the human flesh in which He has intertwined and knitted us together to be His masterpiece and His beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder-His name is Jesus… who views us through a clear lens. He is the only One who can love us unconditionally, whole-hearted and unlimitedly. His love that we feel now from Him is only a fragment of it. Can you imagine how much more love we would feel once we see his beautiful face in heaven? Surely breathtaking. When He calls us home, the last breath taken on earth that signifies the end of life at the physical form, surely will  not be the end of life. When we meet Him at the gates, there we will breathe again. And He will breathe life into us so that it make us whole again. So, this One God that we know, the only One who makes all things possible, is the One we must give glory to and give our never-ending love too—Jesus Christ himself. He doesn’t look at us as people do, He looks at our hearts. He wants to claim our hearts. It doesn’t matter where we came from, what we look like, what we can or cannot do, where we are at the moment; He loves us because we are flawlessly beautiful in His eyes, and that’s a big deal. It’s huge that God loves us just as we are regardless of our sinful nature. He brings life, beauty and love. Lord, let me continue to be someone who is after your heart and in pursuit of you.

A Life Worth Living…

 

IMG_1617When we are faced with difficult times that knocks us down to our knees-crying out for help, crawling into an empty space, and into a fetal position, know that when we call out to the only one who comforts, understands and out-pours His love… is the one who never leaves us even when we may feel His silence; and question Him in ways that bring doubt and hopelessness.

Yesterday, while dining out with family, a woman approached us after listening to our conversation with an employee at the restaurant. After conversing about God and faith in God with the employee, this other woman who approached us began sharing her testimony how she suffered from an enduring pain that became life-threatening due to a serious infection. She spoke about how God healed her; and that it was a time in her life where the pain broke her in ways in which she contemplated on thoughts of ending her life. Ending her life-killing oneself.  God was the One who spoke to her and who gave her hope.

While listening to her testimony, I had flashbacks of the lowest time in my life in 2013 where I too wanted to end my life because I could not deal with the pain anymore. The pain from rejection … rejection after rejection from men who claimed to love me and would never leave me.

After my rescuing by God, I came to the realization that God is true with His promises. It is God who loves and will never leave us.

A rejection that was the final draw for me that had me thinking that my life was not worth living anymore. I thought it was the solution for my pain.  When crawled into a ball, fetal position, crying my eyes and heart out to God, He spoke and embraced me with an overwhelming peace that now I cried for a different reason because I felt His presence, peace and love. It was the Prince of Peace who saved me. It was He who found me and I who found Him.

So, friends, when you feel at your lowest, darkest,  most broken and most desperate, turn to Jesus because He is the only one who can bring us out of darkness; and walking into His light. That was the day when He saved me. It is a life worth living when we know that He loves us so much that if He had to shed His blood on the cross once more, He would do it in a heartbeat—that’s love from the only one who knows how to love us.

You have my heart…

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This fragile, human heart that is chambered within my chest is one heart that beats in your love.

A love that is everlasting, always enduring and yearning for more of your love.

A love that sweeps me off my feet.

A love that covers me as if I was sitting in front of a warm fireplace, where heat is penetrating through my skin and burning through my soul.

A love that smiles down on me as the sunlight shines upon me; a light that is warm, bright and consuming.

A love that is beautiful, innocent, stainless, pure, and without blemish.

Lord, you carry me in your arms, softly whispering to me how much you love me and that you will never leave me.

Your love is the greatest and the purest of all. Consume and have all my heart.

Allow me to submerge and drown in your love in the depths of the ocean, your ocean of love, finding myself seeking more of your love.

A love that is endless and unbearable, where my heart expands and ignites the life and fire within.

I belong to you, my heart belongs to you and all my love belongs to you. You are the greatest of my love and the only love that will see me through in this life that I live because I live for you.

One more try…

IMG_2134Walking in fear at times not knowing what is ahead of me. Guessing I’m too comfortable in my net of safety. Every day is a constant battle fighting and slaying my giants… the fear to love another, the fear to step into faith where God may be calling me to , the fear of letting go of my comforts and in stepping out of the zone. When thinking of all my struggles, it brings tears to my eyes with droplets of sadness and joy, tasting the salt with my lips and crying out to Jesus- questioning why and when. But I know the Lord is with me every step that I take, and it’s okay that I don’t fully understand where He is leading me even though, at times I get frustrated and lose trust in Him. But I know He will reveal to me when the time is right… according to His will. It’s always His will and His way. Lord, only you know my heart and only you can love me as no other being . But I also know that love exist when you exist…truly exist in one’s heart.  Lord , you always give one more try on us- never giving up on us -never turning your face from us- never failing us. With you, one more try is constant and infinite. Afraid to love, the fear of getting hurt, the fear of getting rejected and abandoned . But knowing that you are there where before I didn’t know your presence existed that is until the day you found me in my darkest time and sadness time. Lord, you are love, grace and beauty that fulfills me constantly. When the time is right, I am ready because I know you are preparing me for something great … a love that you made special for me where before no-one could give me on this temporary world.

Passionate God…

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Every morning is a new day.

A day where the sun rises and shines its radiate rays on you reminding that one should be grateful to be alive.

A day that has been written in His book of life where our stories are set on stone.

A day that is precious because we live with every heartbeat that pounds within our chest. The fragile heart that the Lord has placed in us so that, He can fill His love that overflows and spills.

His love is passionate and compassionate.

His love is unbearable and incomprehensible.

Being loved by Him, the One who came down to earth and walked on this earth as a man of flesh and bone, came to love US and to spread His love and truth about US.

Lord, you are passionate about your children, the sons and daughters of a King.

The One who reigns, saves and LOVES.

When you feel defeated…

When you feel defeated, know that God is with you.

When you feel defeated, know that you have already been risen from victory in Jesus name.

When you feel defeated, Jesus is holding your hand so that you’ll feel His presence.

When you feel defeated, know that Jesus is the only one you can depend on.

He is the one who conquered death and rose again.

He is the one who conquered sin and saved us so that we may have salvation.

He is the one who resurrected so that we may spend eternity with Him.

He is the one who defeated the enemy in all his ways so that we may continually be forgiven for our flesh.

He is the one who saves and continues to save us from a path of destruction that leads us on a way of sinfulness.

Jesus poured His blood for us on a cross that is a symbol of His sacrifice and love.

Through His eyes we are seen with beauty and worth.

He is the only one who loves us like no other being. How could we not love Him?

His love is a continuously flow of overwhelming love that has no end.

And, every day with Him is a new page of life that brings joy because I now live for HIM.

 

 

 

You know me…

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You know the real me.

You know the imperfect being that stands before you.

The one who walks with you, hand in hand. Hands cradled. Fingers intertwined. Never wanting to let go.

You know all my scars, wounds and my hidden and deepest hurts.

The blood that has poured out from my heart when severed from those who have inflicted it with lashes of rejection.

You know my broken self.

The self that came to You one solemn day, desperately seeking love and acceptance.

You know my flaws, imperfections, mistakes, sins and the innermost feelings and thoughts contained within me.

You consume me; and I consume your love.

You breathe into me… leaving me breathless and gasping for more of your oxygen entering into my lungs.

Who is this man ? This man who came into the world of flesh and bone , who bear no sin… a perfect man… a man of His word and a man of promise. Oh, sweetest King and my Lord, who am I to deserve your gracious grace and love?

You are a God, my God, the God… the One I serve.

The One who I fall on my knees for, touching the fringes of your garment.

You love me…the real me.

 

Open door…

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Let the breath of God enter my soul as He opens doors to what is ahead of me. He knows where He is leading me even though I wander with the unknown. He knows what is best and knows the perfect time in which to reveal the answers that have been waiting for me. For the wait is over because God created me for a purpose in which has built within me. Giving all the glory to Him because He is the only source of life for me in which I thrive for in this life of mine.

I felt such heaviness in my heart from carrying this which feels like a burden of temporary moment, not understanding why I should continue carrying this feeling within me. And knowing God in prayer and solitude; and waiting for HIM patiently, I find myself that He is all I need. My God has never forsaken me even in those times when I feel so alone, struggling, battling with my fears and insecurities which puts me in a whirlwind of tears. Crying out to Him for rescuing and relief. Lord, you have been so good to me in my trials, tribulations, storms and in darkness. You have been the light to my tearful eyes that cry in how you can love a person like me who fails you everyday even when I try to do what is right , walking in your truth. Forgive me Lord for all the times I disappoint with my words, thoughts and actions. I am an imperfect being, a sinner who serves a perfect God , but you love me anyway.

When we are feeling at our worse, overcome with fears, worries and anxieties, cast all your cares to the Lord. He knows what to do. He is in control. He is the Master of Life. He is the light that always endures. He knows our pain, our struggles and our fears. Jesus knows us better than we know ourselves without a doubt. What a honor to serve a perfect God name Jesus, the giver of life , the creator of life and the light of the world.

The Wilderness…

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My weary and fragile temple that lingers through the wilderness and brings much despair is one who is seeking the Lord for answers. He is silent; and I am in a state of confusion. But I know Jesus is leading the way and making my steps so that I may find comfort.

As I struggle and fight for who I am in Christ, I remain close to HIM. Even though I am drawn to Him with the little faith and confidence that is residing within me, I know that I walk from victory through Him , with Him and in Him.

As I am wandering through the wilderness, lost and in distress, I know that I am not alone. Jesus, the one who rescues, is walking before me. He is the One who is keeping me from falling into the pit of deep despair that spirals endlessly. I know He is faithful. I know He is my refuge and my shelter of safety.

Jesus is the light.

Jesus is the rock from which I stand on.

Walking through this wilderness brings to my heart and soul much despair and sorrow. But I know I am a conqueror through Jesus Christ. He will not fail me in the steps I walk; and I, not knowing where He is calling me will be my reward when He crowns me with life once again.

I am afraid but hopeful. My heart sinks, my body trembles with fear; and my thoughts are weary from the lies that the enemy is striking me with . The Lord is Sovereign and King; and I know HE will not abandon me.

What is this place called the wilderness? What is this path that makes me feel that my God is silent? What is this place where sometimes I feel like I am battling this fight alone? As David faced his fears and his giants; as David defeated the Giant Goliath… Jesus empowered David with the power and authority as a child of God… so then I know Jesus will do the same for me and has done the same for me. He will  not disappoint me for He is my God and my Savior who reigns.

The Breath of God

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Your blood flows through my veins. 

Your hands gently touch my heart.

Your words speak life into me and encourages me to keep pressing on.

Your eyes pierces through my soul and gives me a new heartbeat.

Your breath resuscitates my heart and expands my lungs.

My life without you is nothing but the shuffling of crisp leaves between my toes, becoming brittle and crushed into pieces.

My life becomes like a beacon of your light to shine and be a light to others that reflects your image of love and hope.

Breathe into me so that I am alive again.

My bones are dry and my blood is thin. Lord, come and rescue me from this dark place in my life where I need rejuvenation and renewal.

You are the God who uplifts…

the God who encourages.

the God who redeems.

the God who heals.

the God who restores.

the God who brings life.

the God who renews.

the God who pours.

the God who saves.

the God who frees.

the God who delivers.

the God who rescues.

the God who loves.

the God who forgives.

the God who empowers.

You are life and light. A light that does not fade but strengthens my soul.